tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-294942252024-03-07T21:40:31.109-05:00The hardest part is getting started...RIGHT?My journey fighting PCOS... and myself.Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.comBlogger97125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-36398036906402630852008-06-12T09:31:00.002-04:002008-06-12T09:43:31.470-04:0040 lbs!Wow, I have finally made it to the big 40! I officially feel like I have done something hard :) <br /><br />Well, today is 4 day of my 11 day diet. I am pretty proud of myself for doing as well as I have - but I have slipped. So, things could be better - but I will take what I can get. <br /><br />I am a little bummed this morning - I have been weighing myself every morning to give myself incentive to keep going - cause sometimes it gets really tough and my lazy ass starts to think that backsliding won't hurt too bad... Well to the point, Tuesday morning I lost 1 lb, Wednesday morning I lost 2 lbs, and this morning I gained a pound. So, I am wigging out because things aren't "perfect". <br /><br />I will get over it. But, I do really really hope that when this 11 day menu is up that I won't gain the weight back faster than I can blink. <br /><br />So, I am sitting here telling myself to relish on the good things and keep going. That's how it's done... right?Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-52735344348678646472008-06-08T16:25:00.002-04:002008-06-08T16:57:43.328-04:00Here come the mountains after the plains..Well, I have been sitting still here at 251 for awhile. Even though, in the world of my weight loss things have been boring my eating has not! I have been eating whatever I want whenever and I haven't gained - thankfully! <br /><br />But... (here comes the catch) my trainer is not satisfied! So, she has made a menu that she wants me to eat for 11 days. She wants to "jump-start" my eating habits. Sadly, to say she is more determined about my weight loss efforts than I am. Don't get me wrong - it is something I am ALWAYS concerned about - but I fizzle out from time to time. Sometimes, pushing the rock up the mountain gets old and you gotta stop - shift and get your bearings straight to get going again. <br /><br />The diet is mostly protein, veggies, and fruit. From time to time she throws in some carbs - but not many. She has looked at my food journal and fussed at me because I am not eating a third of my protein requirements and eating too many carbs. Ah, what can I say? I am addicted to carbs. <br /><br />So, on one hand I am excited and another I am scared. I am excited because maybe I can get through this and get going again - possibly make it to my half way point before the end of the year.. Then I am fearful - what if I go through sugar withdrawal and just can't handle it? What if it hurts too bad?!?! <br /><br />Yes, I am a weenie. <br /><br />Well, I will be back this week a lot - bitching and moaning about how I have to eat what's good for me :) I start tomorrow - wish this weenie some strength!Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-36791763940310539312008-05-13T16:23:00.003-04:002008-05-14T21:42:46.110-04:00Truth be told...I suck at this! <br /><br />I stuck to eating consciously for 1 week and lost 5 lbs... you would think that would motive me to do better ... right??? Yeah, not the case - I start slacking off and get too comfortable and my weight starts to rise right back up. It's the same old story... but one thing I am doing this time is I am not giving up. No matter how horrible I do - I refuse to stop - I am going to achieve this even if it takes me 10 years!<br /><br />I told my personal trainer that I quit going to my Weight Watchers meetings. She said, "If you are not going to be accountable to Weight Watchers anymore - I guess you are going to have to be accountable to me - <span style="font-style:italic;">YOU ARE GOING</span> to e-mail me every night with what you ate during the day." Ouch! Talk about not being able to dodge a bullet! I don't like being held accountable... it means I have to do what I "want" to do... but what I "want" to do hurts! But, the person inside my head keeps telling me that if I want to change I am going to have to face the demons I have been ignoring. Who wants to do that? <br /><br />Well, I guess I do. <br /><br />If I want to be the person I muse then I am going to have to get uncomfortable... tantrum and all.Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-5111683496457928332008-04-19T21:28:00.003-04:002008-04-20T10:32:51.489-04:002nd Qtr Challenge - here I come!Hey guys and gals... <br /><br />For the past six months I have been stuck in the mid to high 50's while doing Weight Watchers. I would constantly push myself and do really well then from exhaustion just not give a crap and gain what I lost back. <br /><br />So... my Mom called me about some "weight loss" show she was watching on TLC called <span style="font-style:italic;"><a href="http://tlc.discovery.com/tv/make-you-thin/make-you-thin.html">I Can Make You Thin</a></span>. I promised her I would watch it but I knew it was going to be nothing of use to me. Well, after watching the 1st show it definitely grabbed my attention. It wasn't your usual "take this magic pill and watch the weight melt away!" scheme. It actually sounded like good grounded common sense. My Mom begged me to go on it with her for at least 1 week - she knew I had been battling myself with Weight Watchers for awhile and didn't want me to give up. <br /><br />It was really strange the 1st week. It was actually hard for me to tell when I was full! I also had to stop myself from wigging out about - "I gotta eat this - I can't have that.." mentality. But, I found myself having much more control over myself because I didn't have to worry about not being able to have "insert something yummy here". I found myself getting full a lot sooner with a lot less food. And to boot - I was content because I was eating what I actually wanted! <br /><br />The 1st week I lost close to 5 lbs and my Mom lost 7 lbs! ... and it was WAY too easy! So, fad or not I am giving this method a run. There is no 1 method that is the only right one... something different works for all of us. Maybe this is my solution.. I sure hope so.Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-78893468644623171602008-03-06T13:08:00.002-05:002008-03-06T13:14:33.449-05:00-4.2 LB, 5.2 To Go!Wow! <br /><br />I had a fairly good week this past week but man I wasn't expecting that type of loss! I am so used to teetering around 257 - my lowest weight. But FINALLY, I broke through my plateau! <br /><br />I was thinking about not going to weigh in this morning because my daughter is sick and out of school. But, I knew I wouldn't be there long so I took her with me. Glad I did! When, I see this type of loss it gets me even more motivated to be better!<br /><br />Thank you, Jesus! :)<br /><br />I have a decent shot at reaching my 1st Quarter Goal now! Woohoo - I'm gonna give it some hell!Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-68783701804630629832008-02-12T21:16:00.000-05:002008-02-12T21:46:28.658-05:00-1.2 LB, 97.4 To GoWell, the past two weeks have been relatively good. <br /><br />I have tried to focus more on what types of foods I am eating. I am going by the Core Plan on Weight Watchers to lead my choices but still counting my flex points. I have tried to limit my sugar as much as possible. I usually have some type of slip up everyday. I did have one perfect day recently though... last Thursday - I ate very well and even had 4 points left over after dinner to use for dessert. It felt so nice to do so well! But, I was busy all day. Being a SAHM, it is hard not to munch... and on that Thursday I didn't have time to munch. Today I didn't journal what I ate. If I think about what I have eaten today - I did nothing but snack until dinner time. My son had a big heart filled with Reese's Peanut Butter Cups and who knows how many I finally ended up eating... 1 here .. 1 there... <br /><br />But, I don't want to focus on the negative... the positive? I met my weight goal for last week. :) I changed my 1st Quarter Challenge goal from 235 to 249. It is just more realistic for me... I lose weight very slowly - but the weight I have lost I have pretty much kept off... which is good. <br /><br />I have been working out like a dog. My friend (who is only 10 lbs overweight)started going to the gym with me again. After my 1st 15 mins on the treadmill and elliptical today she said she couldn't do anymore and moved on... I have surpassed her as far as cardio health. It is hard to think that my heart is in better shape than hers - yet I am 100 lbs over weight and her only 10 lbs. <br /><br />One good thing about this journey so far is how much I have started loving to work out. For that 1 hour I feel like I have control... self control... and it is very sweet. Sometimes while I am working out really hard I will all of the sudden get this urge to cry and I have to quickly think of something else to get it to pass. I have never worked so hard in my life for anything other than this. <br /><br />There was a girl in front of me and my friend today on a treadmill. Her body could not been more perfect - exactly what I dream about. She was normal yet fit. She ran on the treadmill for 30 mins + and had hardly broken a sweat. I wonder if she has always been like that? Has she ever been fat? Has she ever loved food too much? <br /><br />Since the new year I have seen a lot more obese people in the gym. So many times I want to go up to them and say, "I am in this with you.." but I am too chicken. You never know how people will react to any comment related to their appreance. <br /><br />Well, tomorrow is another day... and another chance to get this right.Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-40607556187355721192008-01-24T17:17:00.000-05:002008-01-24T17:30:56.334-05:00Another Missed WIThis year has gotten off on an unorganized foot, if I may say... <br /><br />I have been sick this week - fever, sore throat... all the fun stuff!<br /><br />Recently, I have discovered that when I don't journal my food during the day that I actually eat less. When I am trying to have a "good" day I constantly constrict myself - which leads to me feeling completely worn out and deprived. Then I usually start pushing the envelope with a little "something something" here and a little "something something" there... then I finally bust and I just don't care... I eat all the wrong things and in huge quantities. Then after a day of going completely rogue - I jump back on the wagon and do pretty well.. for awhile. It is a huge pattern that has put a lot of strain on my weight loss... it is the main reason (I think) why I haven't made it through my current plateau yet. <br /><br />So how do I deal with this? Do I have an outlier day every once in a while? Or is this something that we all experience along the way and just have to buckle down and get through?Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-90358041425432210012008-01-15T09:38:00.000-05:002008-01-15T10:13:48.783-05:00Hello '08!Hey everyone!<br /><br />Well I am determined to make this year count! Trying to get healthy is one of the hardest things I have ever tackled. But, I know I can do this - and I know I will eventually get there. I am ready to change how I think about my body and the food I feed it. This isn't any longer about vanity - this is about my health and how I feel. Gosh, it has taken me so long to get where I am now - but I am not willing to let that get me down - because I have to have this!<br /><br />My 20's have been wasted. I have been over weight, self conscious and withdrawn. I don't want to lose another year! I want to enjoy life and have fun - not obsess and cry over how I treat myself. I am worth it! I am a nice, fun person! I used to doubt myself - be very unsure - constantly think about why anyone would ever like me. NO MORE! Being down sucks - I want to climb up top! I want to enjoy being in public, being social, even having sex! <br /><br />So, I have to realize that it is going to be hard - but it will be worth it. This isn't about willpower - this is about changing how I think about myself. <br /><br />1. I am worth it.<br />2. I will have bad days - At times I will get discouraged.<br />3. I will no longer dwell on what I have done to myself.<br />4. I will focus on what lies ahead.<br />5. I will never believe that I can't do this. <br />6. I will never accept that I can't look hot.<br />7. Sugar and carbs will no longer be the staple of my diet. <br />8. In order to change I have to give up things that I think I can't live without.<br />9. I will workout 4x a week.<br />10. I will mainly drink water with an occasional diet soda. No fruit juices.<br />11. I will snack on fresh veggies, fruit, and low fat cheese.<br />12. NO more fast food for me or my children.<br />13. When I do eat carbs they must be whole grain.<br />14. I will stay within my points everyday.<br />15. I will only weigh in at Weight Watchers. NO more scale obsessing!<br />16. I will mentally imagine myself in the future everyday.<br />17. I will be a good example for my children.<br />18. I will be excited about the journey as well as the destination.<br />19. I will not compare my weight loss to others.<br />20. I will not feel sorry for myself anymore.<br />21. I WILL NOT GIVE UP.<br /><br />I can do all of these things. God doesn't give me anything I can't handle - so I better suck it up and tackle it. <br /><br />My sister-in-law passed on this very cool site to me. A girl who went from 300 to 120 lbs. <a href="http://www.fitbyjen.com">Fit by Jen</a> She is a great inspiration. She is now healthy and hot! For once in my life I want to be hot! I want to take my own breath away! <br /><br />And I will. I will!Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-22463453854847003812007-12-26T22:11:00.000-05:002007-12-26T22:19:29.436-05:00I'm alive!... and still fat!<br /><br />Ha!<br /><br />Listen guys - I dunno who, or how many people read this but I am taking it all off! NO more sugar coating or beating around the bush. I am tired of being a fat-ass and if I don't do something about it in 2008 - it just isn't gonna get done!<br /><br />I have been lazy. I have been avoiding change. Losing weight is gonna suck. Telling myself NO is gonna suck - working out isn't always gonna be fun! I am so prideful that I have kept myself from fighting the fight to dodge a chance of failure. <br /><br />Lets cut the crap. If I want to be thin - I'm gonna have to make some big ass sacrifices. <br /><br />So, lets friggin' do it already!Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-25743213624361073082007-11-09T12:22:00.000-05:002007-11-09T12:30:55.086-05:00-1 lb, 9 To GoI actually went from 259.0 to 258.8 so it isn't really a pound but on this blog I usually don't get that specific. <br /><br />I can already feel the pull of the holidays creeping up. <br /><br />Eggnog... <br /><br />Gonna have to make a game plan soon.<br /><br />I rethought some things and I changed my current goal to 249. I just want to get out of the 50's! I have been in them since May! Ridiculous!Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-73792856553303036042007-11-02T08:40:00.000-04:002007-11-02T08:42:34.478-04:00-0 lb, 20 To GoWell, after all of my days of not logging my food and eating Halloween candy like it is going out of style; I am surprised that I maintained. <br /><br />But, on to a new week with better choices!Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-22108843763357765712007-10-28T11:26:00.000-04:002007-10-28T11:33:12.947-04:00-??, ?? To GoI didn't weigh in this week. I didn't get up in time to go to my Weight Watchers meeting... I was really upset cause going helps me stay focused. This past weekend has been a huge challenge. But, I made a menu for the next week, starting tomorrow, so this week should be a healthy one. <br /><br />Jamaican Steak, Cauliflower Pasta with portabella mushrooms, Chili Mac, and Honey Grilled Pork Chops are just some of my dinner options. I haven't tried any of these recipes so I will let you guys know how well they taste. <br /><br />I am hoping for my next weigh in to be as close to 255 as possible... here's to hoping! Be back Thursday!Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-13774061334593109012007-10-23T12:23:00.000-04:002007-10-23T13:03:57.382-04:00New Discoveries!Hey guys,<br /><br />As you may know I am a huge sugar freak... Well, I have needed to curb my sugar intake but not deny myself sugar - so I went to Wal-Mart and found some really good, small sugar treats that won't kill you on points/calories. <br /><br />Here they are:<br /><br />1.) <a href="http://entenmanns.gwbakeries.com/product.cfm/upc/7203001778">Entenmann's Little Bites 100 Calorie Packs Brownies (2 pts)</a><br /><br />I am eating these as I type and they are very chocolaty! If you need chocolate there is a lot of taste in this small serving! 4 stars!<br /><br />2.) <a href="http://www.schwansfoodservice.com/Heavenly100/index.cfm">Mrs. Smiths Heavenly 100 Calorie Apple Crisp (2 pts)</a><br /><br />These were pretty good. There was more apples than crisp - but I guess that is to be expected when you are only inhaling 100 calories. Next time I think I am going to add this on top of some no sugar added vanilla ice cream! If you like apple pie I would try it.<br /><br />3.) <a href="http://www2.kelloggs.com/Product/ProductDetail.aspx?product=867">Keebler Mini Graham Cracker Pie Crusts (3 pts)</a><br /><br />I love to get low fat sweetened condensed milk and fresh lemon juice and dump it into a graham cracker crust and refrigerate it. It is very quick, smooth, cold, and tangy. One pie is usually around 55 points and I love it so much most of the time I can't trust my portion sizes when it is residing in my fridge. So, I found these small crusts and I am going to make mini pies and freeze them. When I feel like having one I will throw it into the fridge to thaw and later indulge. This way I can get what I want but not commit a kamikaze. Hopefully, when said and done the minis will be around 8 points each. <br /><br />4.) <a href="http://www.bettycrocker.com/products/warm-delights/warm-delights">Betty Crocker's Warm Delight Minis 150 Calories (3 pts)</a><br /><br />I haven't tried this dessert yet, but it looks enticing! I got the Chocolate Molten Cake. I am a sucker for cakes, cupcakes, or any type of pastry. This is quick, and hopefully good and it reminds me of something I would get for dessert dining out. I hope it is good!<br /><br />5.) <a href="http://www.eatyourbest.com/products/productsearch/searchdetails.aspx?sid=2306">Smart Ones Desserts (3 - 4 pts)</a><br /><br />I have tried the Chocolate Chip Sundae, and Key Lime Pie. I bought the Strawberry Short Cake but haven't tried it yet. The others are great though! They taste wonderful and put an end to your sugar cravings! The only problem I have is only eating one - but as long as I know I can have one tomorrow too, it is easier.Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-44904264750086334302007-10-18T15:09:00.000-04:002007-10-18T15:12:25.117-04:00- 2 lb, 24 To GoWell, there has to be a God because there is no other way I could have possibly lost weight this week! I ate horribly! <br /><br />Oh well, I really want to be healthy more that I care about losing weight so - I have been failing miserably. <br /><br />I can do this -- I know I can -- I just gotta make up my mind.Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-51115320813803730672007-10-17T15:34:00.000-04:002007-10-17T15:44:44.593-04:00That fat person in the mirror...<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://bp2.blogger.com/_nkP9IWkD_Ic/RxZmGkrcQzI/AAAAAAAAABk/XCZJEXf9RBs/s1600-h/noname.jpeg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://bp2.blogger.com/_nkP9IWkD_Ic/RxZmGkrcQzI/AAAAAAAAABk/XCZJEXf9RBs/s200/noname.jpeg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5122393889291649842" /></a><br />I went to see my trainer this morning. After we were finished she took me to a step aerobics class - she keeps urging more different types of cardio through out the week. <br /><br />So, I got my bench and started the class... it was quite embarrassing because I didn't know any of the moves and I have no balance what so ever... but I was still okay laughing at myself and giving it my all. <br /><br />Then it all changed when I looked up and saw myself in the mirror. Who the hell was that fat chick? I was the biggest person in the class and every part of me was jiggling. <br /><br />At that moment all of my glory from losing 30 lbs was lost. My self image doesn't match at all with the reality of myself. I always think, "Yeah, I'm overweight - but it isn't that bad..." Well, today it hit me - I am that bad. I am huge...and sad. After class I came home and ate 1/2 pie and a large coke. <br /><br />I'm pretty down. <br /><br />Even though my mind knows that feeling self pity isn't the right option - it is being a bitch trying to shake it off. <br /><br />What is it going to take for me to get serious?Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-60944781408441610382007-10-11T13:07:00.000-04:002007-10-11T15:16:28.256-04:00- 2 LB, 86 To GoWell, I actually didn't do so well this week and I still lost. <br /><br />Yesterday, I ate 4 Weight Watchers desserts in a row totaling 14 points in all! I guess I just can't have lots of desserts on hand until I get a hold of my sugar cravings. I haven't binged liked that in awhile. It just goes to show that your old habits are easy to come by... unfortunately! <br /><br />And Deb, I do really like Weight Watchers. I love going to the meetings. We all talk about what has been difficult, and how some members have found ways through those times. It is nice to be in a room filled with people who want the same things as you and the fact that you all can relate to one another. It honestly does help me... a lot. I can see my self easily succeeding following the Weight Watchers guidelines. If you have anymore questions just ask me! <br /><br />Well, my 2 year old and 4 month old puppy are destroying my house so I better go. Be back next week!Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-45174925734582788702007-10-07T21:06:00.000-04:002007-10-07T21:16:53.085-04:00Ctr+Alt+DelCrap, I screwed up.<br /><br />I completely fell off the band wagon and gained some pounds. In order to not gain everything back, I decided to dish out the money and start attending the Weight Watchers meetings again. <br /><br />This past Thursday I joined. Fully clothed I weighed in at 263. :(<br /><br />It is so hard to stay focused. It isn't eating better, or working out that make it difficult to lose weight - its the consistency that you must maintain. You have to maintain the change. <br /><br />I have to MAINTAIN the CHANGE.<br /><br />It even <span style="font-style:italic;">sounds</span> hard... Am I the only one out here that is having such a hard time changing? <br /><br />Please share your thoughts with me! I'm not alone right?!?Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-71753478302633777882007-09-14T10:02:00.000-04:002007-09-14T10:23:07.008-04:00- 3 LB, 81 To GoAlrighty! I got right back on track after my vacations - I am ready to get out of the 50's! I haven't been in the 40's since... 2002! <br /><br />I did really well this past week except for yesterday. I had a meeting to go to in the AM and all they had were donuts and apple juice - so I had 1, yes I promise only 1, donut then some juice. Then I got a latte on the way home... um pumpkin spice! I don't even think I had lunch - then I ordered pizza for dinner because I was too lazy to cook. Yep, yesterday was a bad day... but today won't be! <br /><br />The fall time is where I start to munch a lot more than usual - so I gotta watch myself. I love anything pumpkin. I did find a low fat pumpkin bread recipe from <br /><A HREF="http://www.kraftfoods.com">Kraft Foods</a> if anyone is interested. I am going to make it for sure!<br /><br /><center>Layered Pumpkin Loaf</center><br /><br />Prep Time: 20 min<br />Total Time: 1 hr 25 min<br />Makes: 1 loaf or 16 servings, one slice each<br /><br />1 cup canned pumpkin<br />1 cup plus 2 Tbsp. granulated sugar, divided<br />1/2 cup firmly packed brown sugar<br />4 egg whites, divided<br />1/2 cup fat-free milk<br />1/4 cup canola oil<br />2 cups flour<br />2-1/2 tsp. CALUMET Baking Powder<br />2 tsp. pumpkin pie spice<br />1/4 tsp. salt<br />1 pkg. (8 oz.) PHILADELPHIA Neufchatel Cheese, 1/3 Less Fat than Cream Cheese, softened<br /><br />PREHEAT oven to 350ºF. Grease a nonstick 9x5-inch loaf pan; set aside. Mix pumpkin, 1 cup granulated sugar, the brown sugar, 3 of the egg whites, milk and oil in large bowl. Add flour, baking powder, pie spice and salt; stir just until moistened. Set aside. Beat Neufchatel cheese, remaining 2 Tbsp. granulated sugar and the remaining egg white with wire whisk until well blended.<br />SPOON half of the pumpkin batter into prepared pan; spoon Neufchatel cheese mixture evenly over the batter. Cover with remaining pumpkin batter.<br />BAKE 1 hour to 1 hour 5 min. or until wooden toothpick inserted in center comes out clean. Run knife or thin spatula around edges of pan to loosen bread; cool in pan on wire rack 10 min. Remove bread from pan to wire rack; cool completely.<br /><br />* 5 points per serving. <br /><br />Enjoy!Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-40035778404443403172007-09-09T08:11:00.000-04:002007-09-09T08:25:22.557-04:00+4, 84 LB To GoHey guys....<br /><br />Well, I have been on vacation for the past 2 weeks. It has been fun but I am ready to get back into my old routine!<br /><br />The first week my husband and I went to Seattle. Man, what a beautiful city! We enjoyed it so much that we have been playing with the idea of relocating there... but that is another story. While we were there we walked everywhere and we were so busy doing things that eating was sparse. So, I actually ended up losing a pound that week without even trying.<br /><br />But last week we went to the beach with my husband's family... that week was horrible with a capital H!! I ate sooooo badly, and I only did some type of physical fitness 1 day out of 7! So, I deserve the 4 lb gain. <br /><br />I asked my husband when he thought I would be able to be in a situation when everyone around me is eating horribly and I will still be strong enough to make good food choices....? I was trying so hard to pump myself up about this trip .... I was going to eat right regardless of what was in the fridge ... I had even brought some healthy snacks .... but when I was there I fell into temptation and ate like the rest of the skinny folk....<br /><br />That is going to be a day to remember.. when I don't follow the band wagon. <br /><br />I hope everyone is having a good summer -- gonna go read up on every one's news -- thanks for checking up on me Abba!Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-67917980386539024982007-08-19T11:40:00.000-04:002007-08-19T11:43:12.656-04:00+1 LB, 81 To GoAh... well I am on my cycle so I am hoping that is all the gain is... <br /><br />I did measure myself and I have lost another inch on my waist and 1/2 inch on my hips... <br /><br /><br />You ever have those days where you get depressed thinking that you are just spinning your wheels? That is how I am feeling today... <br /><br />Better mood next time...Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-24751135027337780162007-08-10T08:46:00.000-04:002007-08-10T08:55:33.940-04:00- 3 LB, 80 To Go!!! 1st Goal Met!Ah, it is finally here! I have reached my 1st goal!!! This is my all time new lowest :)<br /><br />I get excited knowing that once I get to 248, I will have lost 40 LBS! That number just sounds really big!<br /><br />This past week I have worked out a little -- been hectic with the kids going to school and the new puppy - I have been twice this week... I lowered my points by 5 pts to get through my plateau and it seems to have worked! At first it was hard because at night I would go to bed hungry - but now it isn't so bad. It think that is the hardest part - going through the pain of getting your stomach to shrink - cause your body will make you think you are starving!<br /><br />It has been so hot that I haven't had any problems getting my water in. Too, being hot makes me lose some of my appetite. In the winter I gain two appetites!Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-30330087211312534472007-08-06T09:23:00.001-04:002007-08-06T09:32:20.312-04:00-1 LB, 83 To Go<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://bp2.blogger.com/_nkP9IWkD_Ic/Rrci2TswVgI/AAAAAAAAABA/rc8EH4NShYI/s1600-h/heidi.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://bp2.blogger.com/_nkP9IWkD_Ic/Rrci2TswVgI/AAAAAAAAABA/rc8EH4NShYI/s200/heidi.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5095579819789276674" /></a><br />I celebrated my birthday this past weekend and did really well with my cake. The majority of the cake was sent home with me and I had a nice size piece then threw the rest away! Felt pretty nice to be able to get rid of it!<br /><br />My hormones have been running wild and I have been battling ups and downs and emotional eating. I went to the grocery store and got healthy stuff so I just have to watch how much I eat. <br /><br />My husband got me a puppy for my birthday and I am pretty excited about being more motivated to be physically active while NOT at the gym. I would love to go on daily walks with her. <br /><br />School started back for my kids and I am feeling rejuvenated to get healthy! I never fully let go of my healthier lifestyle but I do get in ruts where I forget what I am trying to accomplish and go haywire on sweets! I really beat myself up when I stray from the track but reading others success stories helps remind me that this journey is long and hard and I gotta be steadfast...Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-32991057719793936742007-07-27T17:52:00.000-04:002007-07-27T18:00:12.699-04:00- 3 LB, 84 To GoWell, finally I am getting back to the lowest point I have been! <br /><br />This time I want to never go back to the 60's. So, I'm gonna have to focus on breaking through the 50's. I am not surprised that 260ish has been a plateau for me. That is how much I weighed before I had my second child - so I think it is a comfortable spot for my body. <br /><br />I have lowered my daily points value by 5 points to get through this plateau. So, I think it is working. <br /><br />I'm still trucking it at the gym. This week I have made it Monday and Thursday so I am gonna have to make myself go tomorrow to get at least 3x in. <br /><br />As a family we have decided that we are ready for a dog. Been looking - going tomorrow... I hope that having a dog might egg me on to be a little more active with my kids - the only exercise I get is at the gym... it would be nice to have mandatory walks together.<br /><br />Well, if I can just break through these last 4 pounds I will have made my first goal!Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-10523099290035419172007-07-20T11:02:00.000-04:002007-07-20T11:09:51.891-04:00-0 LB, 87 To GoWell, no change this week. I did really well this week except for the cake fiasco. But, I did start my period this week - I have been having it every 2 weeks so hopefully my meds will kick in soon! <br /><br />So, I get discouraged because I have been hovering at 260 for 3 months now - but if I keep on kicking it the weight has got to fall off sometime soon right? <br /><br />I feel like my body is changing - but the scale and measuring tape say otherwise. My husband even said that for the first time in a long time he is starting to see my waist. My waist to hips ratio is rather scary - I look like a box! <br /><br />Well, no matter how long it takes my body to decide to let it go - I'm not gonna give up - this is all I have towards a happier and healthier me.Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29494225.post-18807266369787044222007-07-18T22:59:00.000-04:002007-07-18T23:16:14.523-04:00Ummm... Cake!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://www.theage.com.au/ffximage/2006/02/13/chocolate_narrowweb__300x435,0.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px;" src="http://www.theage.com.au/ffximage/2006/02/13/chocolate_narrowweb__300x435,0.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br />After having a great couple of days with handling my diet - I went and fudged it up today. <br /><br />I had my healthy cereal this morning and jumped on the road with the kids - we had tons of errands. By the time I could think about eating I was at the grocery store... and I lost to the fattie in me and bought a small cake. <br /><br />Ummmm... cake is such a weakness for me -- why would I even let myself buy one!?! So, we got home - I fed the kids and put them down for a nap - then I had a piece of cake - then later I had another piece for a "snack"... then another piece for dinner -- well you get the point - by the time I put the kids in the bed I looked at the cake and realized I had eaten half of it completely by myself!!! <br /><br />AH - the HORROR! <br /><br />The worst thing about it is that I did all of this eating almost unconsciously. It didn't even occur to me that I was 1) eating fattening cake and 2) a lot of it! Whenever I screw up badly my brain exits and my body goes nuts!<br /><br />Well, my brain is back and in control - gonna go to the gym tomorrow and eat right - and get back on this buck-o!Abihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02386409710362384516noreply@blogger.com1