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3.24.2007

+2 LB - 90 To Go


Ah... I was doing so well this past month... but I am hoping that my gain is primarily due to my cycle.. lets hope!

I hate my period. About 3 days before its arrival I get so iggy, and I just want to munch & munch! But, really paying attention to my reactions this month has brought some things into light for me. I feel extremely anxious while PMSing. I can't sleep, I worry about everything, and in return I get really irritable. I just feel really stressed in general. But, about 2 days into my period I start to feel normal again, and controlling my snacking is easy again.

About every week I try to write something down, or find a picture that motivates me. I usually keep it in my pocket, in my purse, or better yet on the cookie tin! Last week's motivational message was a reminder that a new mall is opening close to my place in October and I want to go shopping and enjoy every bit of it! This week I found a picture on a L. B. coupon I got in the mail. I really love the picture. She is curvy, normal sized, yet beautiful. That is what I want to achieve. I don't want to be a supermodel, or super thin, I just want to be a beautiful woman.

4 comments:

lilith said...

no matter how much weight you lose or gain...you will still be beautiful. beauty isnt defined by the numbers on the scale but by how we feel. think beautiful. =)

honib1 said...

I could not have said that better than lilith... Beauty is how you feel about you and what you let others see... you are already beautiful.. you are just going to fine tune a few things...
have a great week

Abba said...

I was going to say "no worries, you'll get there". But, I decided that no worries isn't the honest thing to say. I worry all of the time about gaining more weight. It's great that you don't want to be that super skinny girl with all of the right clothes. Being who you are is the most important.

Abi said...

Thanks a lot -- those were some really nice things to say. I know you all are right.. I just gotta practice what I preach and quit worrying so much about whats on the outside.