- 2 LB, 83 To Go

I am pretty proud of myself this week. I remembered to take all of my medication everyday and I stayed in my point range everyday. That is a huge accomplishment for me considering what a basket case I was in April.

On another note, I have *officially* lost 30 lbs. I haven't lost that much in a long time. I pray I keep on going!

Only 3 lbs to my first goal... I am not sure if I am going to reward myself with a new purse and wallet or new pair of gym shoes. I really need the shoes... I haven't been to the gym since April 30th. I don't know why it is so hard for me to get myself there lately... I love working out and it makes me feel so much better - why couldn't I want to indulge in that serotonin release other than the one that comes from food and leaves me feeling crappy and guilty afterward...? Will I ever find something to replace my high from food? For Mother's Day my husband got me a Nintendo DS with a puzzle game on it. So whenever I am bored, restless, or anxious I can play a quick game instead of doing the mindless munching thing. So far, it has helped a lot. I have started, slowly, to relate playing a puzzle with relaxing.

Once again changing is such a hard thing to do!


Abba said...

WooHoo! 30 pounds is awesome!!!

SUNSHINE said...

I completely agree - for me- FOOD is so comforting and even stimulating - it is my GO TO whenever anything is wrong or even when things are right. I am praying every day for God to replace my love of food and replace for it with a love for Him. Keep striving....-Manie